?

Log in

home   
02:27pm 10/12/2005
  hey all u cool kids, im comin home tonite! make sure u give me a call so we can hang out!

luuuuuuuuuv u!
 
     

( After the BEEP)

 
yay   
04:20pm 25/11/2005
  hehehe jolies here! time to hang out wit her!
hav fun in sf everyone else
me and curtis are gonna hang out wit jolie!!!
 
     

( After the BEEP)

 
here we go again   
02:43am 22/11/2005
 
mood: gloomy
i hate how i am and how all my emotions just come and hit me at once without me knowing what to expect. i feel sooo shitty but i guess i found a way to vent. started to write again. even though its bringin me down, it does help me calm down...
 
     

( After the BEEP)

 
CLUE NIGHT!!   
01:14pm 05/11/2005
 
mood: okay
clue night was fuuuun! the beginning video was hilarious. hehehe they did a real good job on it.
i still dont know who my kuyate is...
here are the clues i got

clue 1:
My favorite candy is a tootsie roll
so put it in your mouth and take a stroll

clue 2:
In our family the stoplight
lets us know whats wrong and right


any ideas?

hehe and thank you kuyate for my awesome present! and the yarn trail i had to follow to let me find it! i hope u liked my present!

LOVE YOU KUYATE!
 
     

( After the BEEP)

 
i dont know   
09:01pm 31/10/2005
 
mood: indifferent
so here it is. sometimes i dont get people. i mean, they wanna know all my secrets, but to not include me in on the things just makes me kinda not wanna trust them. i mean if they cant trust me with what theyre sayin then i cant trust them right? i dunno. but i dunno even why im fussin over this. if i do its gonna be like junior high and high school shit again and i dont really want to get back into that fuckin mode.

o well
 
     

( After the BEEP)

 
   
07:49am 31/10/2005
  happy haloween everyone  
     

( After the BEEP)

 
i know   
01:22pm 29/10/2005
  i know what its like to try and help out
i know what its like to worry for a friend
i know what its like to care
i know what its like to be turned down
i know what its like when ur screwed over
cause sum1 prefers looks over personality
i know what its like to be violently pushed away
because u wanna make sum1 feel better
i know what its like to be used


sorry for trying to be a friend. sorry i worry about you. sorry i had to find out the bullshit and lies. sorry for caring. sorry for thinkin i could trust you.

ive been screwed over many times and sumthin about tonite just really made me feel bad/amgry/pissed/let down/lied to/etc...

at least i was able to look out for a few people and make sure they were safe.
even though there was no thank you, id rather be the guy to look after u and not get any recognition

thanx kuyas(edwin, anthony, christian, ryan, jimmy, demetri) and vikky and nick and everyone else i missed.
 
     

(1 beep | After the BEEP)

 
back home and this weekend   
11:17pm 17/10/2005
  so last weekend was coool. my family is awesome. they missed me and got me lumpia! hc game, chillin wit the group, church, clubbin, dennys, etc. my friends are cool. i lub them. so i got like a total of 14 hours of sleep in 4 days. which was coool i guess. then when i got back to campus 3 hours of modern. then studyin for midterm.

friendship games this weekend at fullerton! if ur in a pilipino club at ur college and ur goin, make sure to watch our modern performance! ill be in front! weee. cant wait!
 
     

(2 beeps | After the BEEP)

 
oh the drama   
01:51am 12/10/2005
  yaaa... this weekend for sum reason i think is gonna be akward.... hehehehe... oh well...

and to my you know who, hehehehe u know he does and is gonna want sum alone time and we wont be able to hang out nemore...
 
     

(2 beeps | After the BEEP)

 
1st video!   
04:57pm 05/10/2005
  everyone watch my first video!

check it out on my myspace: http://www.myspace.com/ohsosexyray
or here: http://rayzilla.multiply.com/video/item/1

comment wit feedback!
 
     

(1 beep | After the BEEP)

 
i luv them   
01:46am 04/10/2005
  i love my ateh chansmall and kuya anthony. thanx for coming and cheering me up and for the cheesecake. it really did make me feel better.  
     

( After the BEEP)

 
and again   
12:09am 04/10/2005
  so i guess being replaced by sum1 whos more attractive and flirty then u is cool. it just hurts thats all. but thats not important. its only my feelings. dont fuckin worry bout it.

ya go ahead and bash this but its how i fuckin feel
 
     

(1 beep | After the BEEP)

 
yay   
03:08am 02/10/2005
  chansmall hit a deer!! it was nuts

now i sleep cause i gotta get up in 3 hours

love u
 
     

( After the BEEP)

 
thats fucked up   
04:43am 01/10/2005
  so there are sum people here that annoy me. they think theyre better then me and pick on me cause they think that im just a fuckin dumbass and can control me. if u think so all i gotta say to u is FUCK TO YOU! ur an asshole and stop lookin at me as inferior. its hella annoyin wen u threaten me over sumthin stupid and no one else when they do the same thing. stop bein full of urself. thats another thing i dont like. concieted people. sure i can act conceited but i always end up regreting it cause its not true and even say that im kiddin. but then there are people who think theyre the shit and they brag about it and its just annoying. yeesh i sound so angry but its just pissin me off.
assholes....

on a better note. i love my filipino friends. especially my ateh and kuyas and my host for polypino weekend. and my cuzn, melinda, randy, and nick. u guys are the best
 
     

(1 beep | After the BEEP)

 
so what if i hav filipino friends   
04:07am 30/09/2005
  so i kinda got a hint that leavin a chat room to hang out wit my filipino friends was a bad thing for me to do. but u know what, they hav been real good to me, unlike times when people have talked behind my back and left me out of things. so thank u and goodnite. pce motherfuckers  
     

(2 beeps | After the BEEP)

 
i luv my friends   
12:40am 28/09/2005
  i luv my cuzn! she rocks! lub u swan monkey cow!  
     

( After the BEEP)

 
ouch   
10:47pm 27/09/2005
  dang, low blow, fuck, im such an idiot. im sorry  
     

( After the BEEP)

 
   
12:54am 27/09/2005
  so here we go. i know ur prolly thinkin im a dumbass for actin the way i am. but u know what. u dont know nethin. keep sayin that it happens to everyone and that i shouldnt be actin like i am. but when it comes to promises and friendships, i just cant take the disrespect. u may be able to handle it better but i cant. it really fucks me up. so keep makin ur assumptions and judge me like a fuckin stupid ass bitch. i dont care. it just sucks when u cant let go of a broken heart.  
     

(1 beep | After the BEEP)

 
ahhh   
12:33am 27/09/2005
  how does a good mood suddenly change into a sad mood!?!?! ahhhh  
     

( After the BEEP)

 
ahh school   
11:16am 19/09/2005
  wow week is done but ill write about that later. just had my first 2 classes. dance was cool but history is the sucks. got econ at 2 and tomorow i got history and sociology. bleh stupid college  
     

(2 beeps | After the BEEP)